from now on, i will always floss.

from thanksgiving. 

yes, those are really my sisters.

i wasn't adopted, nor was the blonde headed one. ;)

So, life has been hectic around these here parts (please imagine that with my thickest country accent. I hope it made you giggle.). 

First, I feel like I am going to have an anxiety attack or blow up on someone at work any minute these days. I'm serious. 

I realize that no matter how old we get, where we work, or which environment that we find ourselves in, that we will always be around people who test our patience and kindness. Sometimes I wonder if a few extra dollars an hour + insurance is really worth dealing with it all. 

I guess if I ever get the nerve to actually walk out one day, then I'll have my answer.

Secondly,  I went two weeks ago to the dentist for a teeth cleaning. While I was there, I was told that I had three cavities that needed to be filled. & I was like, "Yea. Let's do this...", except I had to wait until this morning. 

Which was fine.

& just so you all know now, I am a weird-o. 

Why, you ask? -- Oh, because I like going to the dentist. Yes, I know. Weird. 

I don't even mind the needles. The only thing I actually don't enjoy is the numbness that doesn't go away for like four hours!! Anyways, so I am assuming that my bill would be $50. 

Which ISN'T chump change, by any means, but you can imagine my surprise when the woman behind her computer looks up and tells me I owe ....

**DRUM ROLL, PLEASE**

.... $265.60....

WHAT??! Had this woman seriously lost her mind.

You guys, she said, "Oh, I thought I told you it would be that much."

Ummm...NO, LADY!!! Geez.

I literally could not get mad.

I just starred at her, my eyes watered up, and at any moment the tears were gonna start flooding down my face, like a freakin' waterfall.

Luckily, she took pity on me.

As she should have. Obviously.

I only had to pay half today.

Yea, yea. It was still a lot, but I have two weeks until I have to pay the rest.

So I was upset, but grateful nonetheless.

Also, I am going to two small groups this year.

One with Nathan and his church and the one I attend with the young adults from my church.

So my Sunday & Thursday evenings are now full and I love it that way! 

& Jesus does, too.

We talked about it, so I know.

Anyways, I would like to lose some weight, guys.

Not necessarily to be thin.

But frankly, I need to be healthy.

I just have no discipline or motivation for it.

Yea, so I'll letcha know how that goes. 

Well that was a bunch of rambling. 

Remember...I have a tendency to do that often.

Ok. 

So, finally, I had been seeing a counselor for my anxiety/stress/worry.

Which was great, but listen folks...I can not be forking out $42 every two weeks to talk to someone about my problems.

Would one of you do it...for FREE!?? 

Just kidding.

Sort of.

It is now 1:30pm.

I haven't eaten all day.

My mouth is no longer numb.

So, I'm signing off here to eat something...probably not healthy.

Geez.

Someone hold me accountable, please!!

Happy Thursday, friends.

much love,

colie.