currently. //


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i am doing it.
i am going to do a "currently" blog post.
i'm not sure if i like them.
i am not against them.
i just don't know.

so here it goes:

reading: DIVERGENT!! OH. MY GOODNESS. ---> Is the all caps helping you guys know how awesome this book is?! Well, if isn't helping then let me just tell you... it is AWESOME! Seriously. I might just like it better than The Hunger Games. I'm not sure yet. I love how it is written and pumped about reading the next book. The only downside is that I have to wait until October for the third installment!! But maybe that is a good thing.

listening to: Lots of Jesus Culture & Ben Howard. I love the sounds of both.

feeling thankful: for family. not sure why. for most people this would be a no brainer answer, but i have never been super close to my family. We all are very different and many times i feel i have nothing in common with them. But I love them. & we have celebrated a lot of birthdays over the past two months, so it has been nice visiting and seeing them more lately.

thinking about: THE WEDDING!! Ah. The countdown is at 104 days, roughly three and half months, and nothing has really been purchased or crafted or anything. But no worries. All shall fall together. This is the girl who waited until two days before finals to cram during college. I passed every semester. I should be okay...right?!

eating: cup-o-noodles. a lot. they are cheap. they are good. that is all.

watching: hmm.. I haven't watched much lately. Summer has been great for reading. Plus, we do not have cable anymore, just Netflix + HuluPlus. All the good stuff won't be back on until the fall. HOWEVER, I have been watching auditions for SYTYCD (So You Think You Can Dance?) on HuluPlus, and that makes me heart happy. in another world, i image that God made me a beautiful dancer...

bummed out about: going to work tomorrow. it is the first of the month and the pharmacy will be booming. and frankly, not in a good way. all the medicaid patients get their checks and their slots open up again for the month and they swarm in like a pack of wolves. also, and this may sound harsh, but most smell like a pack of dirty wolves. i just don't understand that. most of them smell so bad...yet we live in America. A bar of soap is like .99c ... I rest my case.

loving: my discipline to push  myself into a healthier me. i have been so unhappy with  my weight and it has been high time i do something to change it!

& there you all have it.
if you made it this far, i hope i didn't bore you to tears.
if i did, i apologize.
i do.

now, off to read and then to bed.
hope you all had a lovely weekend.
much love,

gettin' hitched. //


"aww." that is what you are all saying, right? RIGHT??!

well, i must say that when carisa gave a little sneak peek on facebook, i was extremely happy and very excited.

i was also over critical of myself. i think i instantly saw just how overweight i have gotten, every wrong angle of myself, how weird my smile can be, what people will think once they see that i have a huge tattoo on my arm, why i didn't choose the other dress, and so on. i believe as females we have a bad habit of doing that in general. & though i still feel that way (and tend to with almost any photo i am EVER in), it speaks nothing of the incredible job that our photographer did. she was an absolute dream, a dear to spend time with, and who made us feel comfortable with her and each other during the shoot.

nathan was over the moon with our engagement session, as well. & the hundred times he told me how beautiful i am and how he can not wait to marry me, helped me to focus on what is really important. that none of those little insecurities matter.

& in four months, i will stand before God, close family, and dear friends to commit my life to someone. it is a big step, but one i am so ready to take.